I made a mistake

Some people make mistakes and move on
I've made and mistake and yet I haven't moved on
I countinuously pick the same men
over and over and over again
Men who always have problems
Men who don't come from much of nothig
When I do get someone who came from something
I turn them away
I figure that there trying to use like the rest
In life your going to be used but its if you allowed it
I choose to be used because I wanted to be loved
But why? Men know what there doing to you
They know espcially when they got you
I unfortuntely say love 2 much
I've said it more than once
How could I be in love when someone is hurting me
I'm not in love I'm emotionally detatched
Detatched to men who I feel need my help
But how can I help when I can barely help myself
I'm starting to realize a few things
Don't say you love someone when you don't mean it
Because you than find yourself emotionally
Detatched to whoever it may be
I made a mistake
When I said I loved you first