ADDICT II

I'm an ADDICT again

But this time its different
I'm an ADDICT for chocolate things
You know... some then Tall
Some then smooth
Some then delicious
I know what it is
I know who has it
It's an ADDICTION
I got to have that
Wanna know what it is...
Of course a Black Man
Not just any black man
A chocolate black man
Light-skinned black man...
Ya'll ain't coming back
Because we don't want ya'll
I know I don't want none of ya'll
I don't want nothing that's not chocolate and sexy
If it's too light... get yo thing away from me
I don't give a fuck
I'm an ADDICT
I'm an ADDICT for Dark man with fades
Fuck curls daddy
Were not in the 10th grade
I'm an ADDICT for perfect teeth
Baby with the best smile
You make ya girl have butterflies
Because you looking so Bomb
so fly with your fitted hat
& yo pressed white-T
You don't over do it
Because you already know you got swag
So instead of the jordans
You wear the chucks with the Catki pants
Damn...
This is im an ADDICT part two
For fine ass black men
But only chocolate men

S0

In reality most people dont have dreams
I guess I'm lucky enough to one day
Think that some day I'm gon shine
That I'm gon rise and be the boss
Who tells people what to do
I want to be behind the seens
Not in the limelight
Partying every fuckin night
Having photographers take pictures of me
Knowing all my business and interested in who I meet
The life I wanna have is at peace
Go somewhere and won't have to worry about money
Not have to worry about bills
Not have to worry about shit
I take a lot of pride in myself
& I feel every woman should
Don't let nobody hold you down
Espcially a nigga
Niggas are distractions espically when you
like them
Niggas love to hold a woman back
When they got something good going
They love to lie and get you caught up
They love to play games and tell you
That your the one who needs to grow up
But thats a different story I have to tell
Some other time when one comes to my mind
All think of a rhyme
Now its about me and what I feel
I slowly feel like life is passing and theres not
shit I can do about it
I try to be humble I try to have hope
But are my dreams really just something I made up
Something I can't make happen but eventually will
I look at Tyler Perry and he's my idol
A Black man doin it big
Now if we only could have a Black Woman like that
Opening up door for the younger generation
It seems to me our community doesn't have shit
I mean if you look at Hollywood I don't see another
Halle Berry Or Denzal Washington
But you know lately I've been watching t.v
I see all these reality shows that make all this money
I tell myself is that all I got to do?
go On one of these dumb shows and act a fooh
Because that's all it is is us acting a fooh
I could be diva if I wanted to
But I dont wanna be Beyouce
But I'm gonna be me
I do what I will and I do what I want
But sometimes of course
It's hard to do me
There's always a disappoint
& A little regret
That might have to do with some of the descisions
I make as a young woman
As a single female
Thinking this was love when it was bullshit
Thinking this is the one when it shouldn't
Can't plan everything
& you can't cheat on life
Can't want everything
When you got less than 100 in your wallet
Can't believe everything otherwise your naive
Can't fight every bitch when they hate on you
Can't sleep with a man in just two weeks
You'll think it was something special
He'll think it was that easy
Society is so fucked up in itself
Men get away with a lot and still have the power

So this guy I was talking to right...

So I was talking to someone who I had once talked to for not very long at all. It was so short that I can't even remember how long. Anyhow he called me at two in the morning trying to see how I was. He said he had missed me all along. I didn't know what to think but just to ask why? He never really answered me and I ignored the subject eventually. So as we start talking again I slowly start to see... the only way we can see each other was up to me. So I told him why dont you come see me this time I'm not that far away. So he said okay. Didn't hear from him till four days later. Four days later he told me he had fucked up. He got a DUI before he got to my house. I said why would you drink and drive it's not that serious. Than this fooh gon say he got a DUI for being high. He went to jail for only a couple hours. So if you got out in a couple hours how come you didn't text me and tell me till four days later? Anyway the point I am getting to is that he lied... He lied just so I can feel bad and come see him. If that's not pathetic I don't know what is. A lot of these young men claim they they are so real... but I thought about it it's impossible to be real. Your either real smart, real cute, real trif, or in this situation a real liar. You had to lie just to get a m=woman to come over your house. I was speechless... but He had reminded me of a lot of different guys I used to talk to just mixed up in a way. I told my momma I don't I'm gon ever find someone who can not only be my friend but as well as a companion. Black men lie so much about the littlest stuff. Trying to get us caught up with the game. But I don't feel like playing especially if there's no money in it

ADDICT

Was one
Probably still am one
Addict and I can't believe I let it happen
I can't believe I allowed it
But once you get a hit of it
You can't stop it
Once you feel it going in
You can't ignore it
I'm an ADDICT
yes, I'm an addict
So what
People can judge me all they want
Men look at me like I am bad but
who gives a fuck
Who gives a fuck if I'm an ADDICT
It's mostly men who offer it
They say it's not cute
If it's not than how ya'll like
to do it too?
Don't stereotype me cause I'm a woman
& It's not in my nature
Man shit happens and your body
Can't control everything
I'm an ADDICT
I need to stop
I'm an ADDICT
Who gives a fuck what
If its offered I'm gonna
Take it and receive
put it in my mouth
& let it get released
So beautiful and just right
I can take a full package
all night
I'm an ADDICT
I need to quit
I'm an ADDICT
I'm realizing this shit
I was an ADDICT
But today is different
Because now it's not a want or a need
I don't crave the taste
I don't strive to see
I don't rush to get it
I don't fall to ma knees
It's NASTY but I was an
ADDICT FOR FUCKIN
Ni-ca-tine

Crazy...

calling me a bitch

I had men tell me I'm crazy
I had men tell I'm mean
One of my homeboys told me the
other day I'm unapproachable
& That he would'nt try to talk to me either
Sounds like ya'll r calling me a bitch
A person who is difficult & always complains
I say maybe if ya'll did what ya'll suppose to do
I wouldn't act this way
Take care of home first
& not play so many games
Because I'm gon act a fooh
when your not taking care of bizness
I might just act crazy one day that its
so ridiculous
My cousin & i have come to a conclusion
a lot men r plain idiots
just stupid
You want to act dumb and expect me to deal with it
That's why I cut a lot of people out my life
You won't even know what happened
or why. Just be wondering what did I do?
Than gon see I'm over u

its 1:37 AM

Up so late thinking
Let the past be the past
I need to keep it pushin
Obviously the men I fell in love with
Are not with right now
God has a plan for me
God has someone for me
But it's not now
I can name of at two or three who wouln't have done me wrong
now they got kids and shit
oh well
life goes on I'm moving on
I miss the past more than my time now
But I feel better knowing I'm gon
get my life together
Everything happens for a reason
Everything does I just thank go for bringing the
most important people in my life
who have been there in the past and now

Laughing Right now

I thought we we really had somethen going on
But I should've known you was a dog from the start
Had me thinking I was your girl
But I wasn't nothing like that
I was just another fuck
It really hurt me how it all went down
You lied all in the beginning
But you kept it real in the end
You told me were not together
Just like that
I will never look at you the same way again
You knew you was wrong
You knew that I was right
I had love for you and you did this
to me so many times
I gave you all of me
I gave you my intamacy
I gave you my all
What did I get from you
Nothing, shit nothing at all
I got what I wanted but not what I needed
You would ask me to come over
& I would
I should'nt have
But I knew the business
We did what we do
Never no regrets
Not even when I first met you
Because this time around
It's not the same
The feelings I had are lost somewhere
I'm mad it took a year for me to finally see
Your never going to change
Not for her, not even for me
I seen you recently
& I just laugh because you are still fine
It makes me mad
Mad that I can't clone yo young ass
just like you, have all your features,
personality, and attitude
We had some good times that's all I can say
Memoriable.... but it won't ever happen again
Not to say I never got down like that
But I've already went through the trap
What's the point in repeating myself
Nothing's going to change
Your still gon be you
& I'm still gon be me
Pap you called me
Man I'm sorry but that's not me
Not anymore and never gon be
Pap was an illusion and the opposite side me
The side no one has seen
That was a name that I'm not proud to repeat
That was a name between u and me