L.O.V.E

ADDICT II

2009-08-31T22:48:00.000-07:00

I'm an ADDICT again

But this time its different
I'm an ADDICT for chocolate things
You know... some then Tall
Some then smooth
Some then delicious
I know what it is
I know who has it
It's an ADDICTION
I got to have that
Wanna know what it is...
Of course a Black Man
Not just any black man
A chocolate black man
Light-skinned black man...
Ya'll ain't coming back
Because we don't want ya'll
I know I don't want none of ya'll
I don't want nothing that's not chocolate and sexy
If it's too light... get yo thing away from me
I don't give a fuck
I'm an ADDICT
I'm an ADDICT for Dark man with fades
Fuck curls daddy
Were not in the 10th grade
I'm an ADDICT for perfect teeth
Baby with the best smile
You make ya girl have butterflies
Because you looking so Bomb
so fly with your fitted hat
& yo pressed white-T
You don't over do it
Because you already know you got swag
So instead of the jordans
You wear the chucks with the Catki pants
Damn...
This is im an ADDICT part two
For fine ass black men
But only chocolate men

S0

2009-08-06T23:44:00.000-07:00

In reality most people dont have dreams
I guess I'm lucky enough to one day
Think that some day I'm gon shine
That I'm gon rise and be the boss
Who tells people what to do
I want to be behind the seens
Not in the limelight
Partying every fuckin night
Having photographers take pictures of me
Knowing all my business and interested in who I meet
The life I wanna have is at peace
Go somewhere and won't have to worry about money
Not have to worry about bills
Not have to worry about shit
I take a lot of pride in myself
& I feel every woman should
Don't let nobody hold you down
Espcially a nigga
Niggas are distractions espically when you
like them
Niggas love to hold a woman back
When they got something good going
They love to lie and get you caught up
They love to play games and tell you
That your the one who needs to grow up
But thats a different story I have to tell
Some other time when one comes to my mind
All think of a rhyme
Now its about me and what I feel
I slowly feel like life is passing and theres not
shit I can do about it
I try to be humble I try to have hope
But are my dreams really just something I made up
Something I can't make happen but eventually will
I look at Tyler Perry and he's my idol
A Black man doin it big
Now if we only could have a Black Woman like that
Opening up door for the younger generation
It seems to me our community doesn't have shit
I mean if you look at Hollywood I don't see another
Halle Berry Or Denzal Washington
But you know lately I've been watching t.v
I see all these reality shows that make all this money
I tell myself is that all I got to do?
go On one of these dumb shows and act a fooh
Because that's all it is is us acting a fooh
I could be diva if I wanted to
But I dont wanna be Beyouce
But I'm gonna be me
I do what I will and I do what I want
But sometimes of course
It's hard to do me
There's always a disappoint
& A little regret
That might have to do with some of the descisions
I make as a young woman
As a single female
Thinking this was love when it was bullshit
Thinking this is the one when it shouldn't
Can't plan everything
& you can't cheat on life
Can't want everything
When you got less than 100 in your wallet
Can't believe everything otherwise your naive
Can't fight every bitch when they hate on you
Can't sleep with a man in just two weeks
You'll think it was something special
He'll think it was that easy
Society is so fucked up in itself
Men get away with a lot and still have the power

So this guy I was talking to right...

2009-07-29T05:35:00.000-07:00

So I was talking to someone who I had once talked to for not very long at all. It was so short that I can't even remember how long. Anyhow he called me at two in the morning trying to see how I was. He said he had missed me all along. I didn't know what to think but just to ask why? He never really answered me and I ignored the subject eventually. So as we start talking again I slowly start to see... the only way we can see each other was up to me. So I told him why dont you come see me this time I'm not that far away. So he said okay. Didn't hear from him till four days later. Four days later he told me he had fucked up. He got a DUI before he got to my house. I said why would you drink and drive it's not that serious. Than this fooh gon say he got a DUI for being high. He went to jail for only a couple hours. So if you got out in a couple hours how come you didn't text me and tell me till four days later? Anyway the point I am getting to is that he lied... He lied just so I can feel bad and come see him. If that's not pathetic I don't know what is. A lot of these young men claim they they are so real... but I thought about it it's impossible to be real. Your either real smart, real cute, real trif, or in this situation a real liar. You had to lie just to get a m=woman to come over your house. I was speechless... but He had reminded me of a lot of different guys I used to talk to just mixed up in a way. I told my momma I don't I'm gon ever find someone who can not only be my friend but as well as a companion. Black men lie so much about the littlest stuff. Trying to get us caught up with the game. But I don't feel like playing especially if there's no money in it

ADDICT

2009-06-04T02:13:00.000-07:00

Was one
Probably still am one
Addict and I can't believe I let it happen
I can't believe I allowed it
But once you get a hit of it
You can't stop it
Once you feel it going in
You can't ignore it
I'm an ADDICT
yes, I'm an addict
So what
People can judge me all they want
Men look at me like I am bad but
who gives a fuck
Who gives a fuck if I'm an ADDICT
It's mostly men who offer it
They say it's not cute
If it's not than how ya'll like
to do it too?
Don't stereotype me cause I'm a woman
& It's not in my nature
Man shit happens and your body
Can't control everything
I'm an ADDICT
I need to stop
I'm an ADDICT
Who gives a fuck what
If its offered I'm gonna
Take it and receive
put it in my mouth
& let it get released
So beautiful and just right
I can take a full package
all night
I'm an ADDICT
I need to quit
I'm an ADDICT
I'm realizing this shit
I was an ADDICT
But today is different
Because now it's not a want or a need
I don't crave the taste
I don't strive to see
I don't rush to get it
I don't fall to ma knees
It's NASTY but I was an
ADDICT FOR FUCKIN
Ni-ca-tine

Crazy...

calling me a bitch

2009-05-26T11:11:00.000-07:00

I had men tell me I'm crazy
I had men tell I'm mean
One of my homeboys told me the
other day I'm unapproachable
& That he would'nt try to talk to me either
Sounds like ya'll r calling me a bitch
A person who is difficult & always complains
I say maybe if ya'll did what ya'll suppose to do
I wouldn't act this way
Take care of home first
& not play so many games
Because I'm gon act a fooh
when your not taking care of bizness
I might just act crazy one day that its
so ridiculous
My cousin & i have come to a conclusion
a lot men r plain idiots
just stupid
You want to act dumb and expect me to deal with it
That's why I cut a lot of people out my life
You won't even know what happened
or why. Just be wondering what did I do?
Than gon see I'm over u

its 1:37 AM

2009-05-13T01:33:00.000-07:00

Up so late thinking
Let the past be the past
I need to keep it pushin
Obviously the men I fell in love with
Are not with right now
God has a plan for me
God has someone for me
But it's not now
I can name of at two or three who wouln't have done me wrong
now they got kids and shit
oh well
life goes on I'm moving on
I miss the past more than my time now
But I feel better knowing I'm gon
get my life together
Everything happens for a reason
Everything does I just thank go for bringing the
most important people in my life
who have been there in the past and now

Laughing Right now

2009-05-11T23:40:00.000-07:00

I thought we we really had somethen going on
But I should've known you was a dog from the start
Had me thinking I was your girl
But I wasn't nothing like that
I was just another fuck
It really hurt me how it all went down
You lied all in the beginning
But you kept it real in the end
You told me were not together
Just like that
I will never look at you the same way again
You knew you was wrong
You knew that I was right
I had love for you and you did this
to me so many times
I gave you all of me
I gave you my intamacy
I gave you my all
What did I get from you
Nothing, shit nothing at all
I got what I wanted but not what I needed
You would ask me to come over
& I would
I should'nt have
But I knew the business
We did what we do
Never no regrets
Not even when I first met you
Because this time around
It's not the same
The feelings I had are lost somewhere
I'm mad it took a year for me to finally see
Your never going to change
Not for her, not even for me
I seen you recently
& I just laugh because you are still fine
It makes me mad
Mad that I can't clone yo young ass
just like you, have all your features,
personality, and attitude
We had some good times that's all I can say
Memoriable.... but it won't ever happen again
Not to say I never got down like that
But I've already went through the trap
What's the point in repeating myself
Nothing's going to change
Your still gon be you
& I'm still gon be me
Pap you called me
Man I'm sorry but that's not me
Not anymore and never gon be
Pap was an illusion and the opposite side me
The side no one has seen
That was a name that I'm not proud to repeat
That was a name between u and me

KARMA

2009-05-09T02:03:00.000-07:00

It has finally hit me
It's still hitting me
& I'm tryin to stay strong
I didn't believe it at first
I thought this was a joke
Karma is a bitch when you do
someone wrong
Someone who loves you so much
So much you can't even handle it
You than begin taking advantage
Because you don't understand it
You don't understand why they love
you so you cheat. You do horrible things
and keep it all a secret
Everything about you is hidden
from every guy
Because if he finds out who you r
he might just not ever look in your eyes
look and your eyes and see
see that this woman right here might be
the woman for me
the woman i can love
not grow to love
because growing to love
is not real
it's not real and its waste of
time. waste of thinking
a waste of life.
Life is too precious to waste
on someone you think you love
Because when I love I don't think
I just love which is crazy
I give my love and they don't even know it
That's why Karma hurts
Yes, karma is no joke
but for some reason
if I have a girl I might name her after it
Crazy it sounds
stupid it sounds
but its unique
than all the little boys will stay away from
her unless there's a daddy
but karma is crazy
yes karma is real
I don't like talking about it
But Karma is a bitch

She's so scandaless

2009-05-09T01:30:00.000-07:00

I luv to fuck em
so that i can get what I need
He thought I was sleep
but really I'm goin through his wallet
to see how much dough i can recieve
That's not his money
its mine I earned everything
I'm not a hoe
But I am a hustla
all hustle a nigga out for
all hes got.Money, shoes, clothes, &jewerly.
I'm on my grind that nigga got plenty of money
he don't need
& if hes married that even better
cause I know he won't leave her for
ever
That's better for them and better for me
cause all I really want his dick and money
Dick and money
bitch please, these men are out here calling us dogs
for what. because we do things for free
just fuck that nigga real good than wait till he
goes to sleep
go in his wallet and take everything
after that dont say nothing just leave
Fuck that nigga
thats what he gets for fuckin with a SKI

- I wrote this because its true. This is not about me. I am just a freelance writer. So that means I can write whatever the hell is on my mind. I know today in music woman talk about ways to play men. You sleep with them and end up taking everything a nigga got

Nice Knowing You

2009-05-08T13:58:00.000-07:00

For a minute
everything was all right
for a minute
I started to tell you the truth
How i felt and how much I wanted to
be with you and love you
Than reality hit
nigga fuck you and fuck yo bitch too
Your just a chauvinist
You think your better than woman
Nigga you are not better than me
You are shit where you stand
Don't try to say we can be friends
Because I will spit in yo hand
I guess thats what happens when you try to play
the wrong woman
You get fucked literally and than your forgotten
Yes, I took everything
I took your money and I took the dog
You tried to put me down
but that made me more strong
Trying to manipulate me and say its my insecurity
Bitch please. You got me fuck up
You don't know who you dealing with
Go back to your ex cause I know
She still wants you
All you is and ever going to be is her meal ticket
Man I am so through
I stood by you for so long
we was like bonnie and Clyde
Than you started comparing me to her
having me loose my mind
go back to her like I said cause she's what you want
Even though I loved you more than she did
Go ahead cause I don't want you
Matter a fact I'm so over you
Nice knowing you
You'll be back and I'm gon be the one to saying
I told you

2009-05-07T22:21:00.000-07:00

I'm happy I'm here today
I'm happy I'm not insane
I'm happy I have this lil boy in my life
Who puts a smile on my face.
Never look back at your past
Only look at today
How are things are right now
Are the people in your life real
or are they just around through time
Though time will past, you may not see them again
I just wish the best for those I've lost
or haven't talked to in a mintue
I've noticed I've changed
I've become a little bitter
I feel it might be the men who I allow come in my life
& try to FUCK it all up in pieces
But today I went out for the first time by myself
Alone, and it felt nice. I felt good about myself.
No date,no guy, no friends, just me
amazing

2 My Ex : he knows who he is

2009-04-28T00:35:00.001-07:00

I thought about him today
Thought about everything we did
& how it was perfect
What went wrong and why
How is it that we hurt the ones
who love us the most
& still never find anyone
I'm sorry I hurt you
I'm sorry I let you go' when you was
You was good to me
But I was too young to
see it
Too young to be exclusive
Too young to just be with you
My mind was somewhere else
I lost the main person in my life
Who was half of me
I'm not saying I want you back
Because I know you've changed
The way you think and the way you've matured
Into a man
As for me I don't want anybody
I'm content with it just being me
I'm fine not dating and just having
friends and family
I don't know why I said something now
When I know it's too late
You have someone and I would never want to runin it
Maybe two years I wouldn't mind
Because everything I seemed to touch
Would dissolve
All I can say is I am sorry for what I put you through
I'm sorry for everything I did to hurt you
You know who are and this right here
Is written and meant just for you

Stay Runnin

2009-04-01T23:01:00.000-07:00

He says I stay Runnin from him
& that this is how its gon b

if this is how its gon b
than why you still callin me

I'm not sure where you and I
Will be, I'm really not sure
if there is gon be a u & i
u & i? might be complicated
but than maybe... not really
being around felt too good to b
true. My problem was I wanted to
change you. Mold you and make you strong
You've already seen I have a good heart
I treat my men good
I love my men hard
I don't play games unless
you start first
now that i think about it
a lot of shit is startin to trace
back to me....
i remember how u sounded too good to be true
& you was. i thought u was a man who liked chasing
after a challenge.
A challenge to see if you could fuck
fuck and than whats next....
I don't know get bored
Most men string woman along as they main
while they got other bitches
But that's not me
I'm nobodies rebound
I'm not a toy
I'm a young lady
I refuse to be 3rd or 2nd
I refuse to be last
I want to be on your top
not just your mane-squeeze
your everything

"u told me im looking for a nigga
to b a nigga & not that nigga"
I'm not looking for a nigga
I'm lookin for gentlemen
till i find that..... i'mma stay runnin

SELF-DESTRUCT

2009-04-01T22:37:00.000-07:00

I went through a few of my words today
& I noticed they were all about love
Trying to find that special someone
Not recently but when I was only 13
Why was I looking for love at that age?
That's when you go to the movies with friends
I wonder if it has to do with my father
leaving us in the past
There was a time in my life I was self-destructing
Really I was looking for love from men
Because my father was gone and
my brother had passed
My brother was like my father in some ways
I would've had him give me away
I know young woman today are looking for love
why so early? Is it cause our fathers aren't thier
for us? Is cause they were never thier. My father left when I
was eight, I barely remember some of the things him
and I did before than. All I'm saying is I'm coming up with
an analogy.... why is that girls who don't have thier fathers
self-destruct? Why do they turn to other men from love.
But they end up getting used and abuse.
Their morality fade.... all they see is love....
all guys do is tell you what you want to hear
than they got you because they know
when a woman is not going no where....
self-destruct: what does that mean for woman

I have a friend.... story

2009-04-01T01:11:00.000-07:00

I have a friend who can't be helped ... She's been traumatized by all the abortions
& Men who who didn't give a fuck ...They tell her she's the one
& That they have her thinking the worse
That everything they say is Real ... they take and abuse
whatever she has to give .... than she ends up pregnant
than they start changing .... they act as if its not their baby
They want a pregnancy test ... which is bizarre
considering he was the one she had had sexual intercourse with
but in today's society .... its okay for men to ask questions like that
because young girls are usually trying to set up traps
but when a man ask a woman something like that
it crushes them .... more than can you ever think
Not only does he think I have been cheating ... he doesn't believe its his baby?
While my friend is going through a hard time ... I am their to mold her
To recuperate her .... have her up and out again
Because men always seem to mess it all up for the next
Woman than start to have a hard time trusting ... &
whats bad is that their are good men out their who don't do anything

2009-04-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

People wish for things
But they never pray for things
I wish I could bring you back
I wish you and I switched places
Than you would raise your son
& have a family?
Raise your son and have a family
But what about me?
All be alright
I heard its better in heaven anyway right'
I won't have to have a concinse on temptation
Should I take it or wait a lil bit'
It's hard for me to wait
It's hard for me to do me
When theirs constantly
Demons floating around me
Wanting to take me
Wanting to use me
Wanting to abuse me
Wanting to not see me smile
Wanting to not see me pass
Living a life that I dream
Living a life with morality....
I love you and I love him
I wish it could be the three of us again
But that'd be silly right
Living in a dream
I just hope one day
I'll try and pray one day
That when my time is up I can see you again

2009-03-25T23:15:00.000-07:00

Hear I go again
Talkin bout Love Again
Why again am I insane
Or am I just lonely
I feel like weak and
my heart was hurting
I couldnt believe I fell again
not once not twice
yes again
But I realized something
My heart was hurting
But my eyes would get wet
I had already knew it was coming
thats why I didn't sweat
I didn't sweat or shed no tears
I couldn't
Why? How could? Why would I?
Why cry over someone who hurt you
why? So in thee end I'm still me
Livin ma life
Loveing ma life
That s just me

I made a mistake

2009-02-28T23:30:00.001-08:00

Some people make mistakes and move on
I've made and mistake and yet I haven't moved on
I countinuously pick the same men
over and over and over again
Men who always have problems
Men who don't come from much of nothig
When I do get someone who came from something
I turn them away
I figure that there trying to use like the rest
In life your going to be used but its if you allowed it
I choose to be used because I wanted to be loved
But why? Men know what there doing to you
They know espcially when they got you
I unfortuntely say love 2 much
I've said it more than once
How could I be in love when someone is hurting me
I'm not in love I'm emotionally detatched
Detatched to men who I feel need my help
But how can I help when I can barely help myself
I'm starting to realize a few things
Don't say you love someone when you don't mean it
Because you than find yourself emotionally
Detatched to whoever it may be
I made a mistake
When I said I loved you first

DAY 3

2009-02-24T22:50:00.000-08:00

When I'm high
It's alright
But than there times
when it feels like my brain
Has slowed down
as if i took riddline
to calm

DAY 2

2009-02-24T22:48:00.000-08:00

I’m floating now
I’m in the sky
I’m floating now
I see the galaxy
I just wish I could see him
One day
I wonder if I hit more
Will I go far
Off to heaven and see him
Him? Oh that’s my brother
Mar. His real name is Lamar
He’s farther than the galaxy
He’s farther than space
He’s somewhere where
People go when they rest
There eyes and body
I always wanted to know that feeling
The feeling of being free
I know when I’m done with this
I’m going to go back to ma
Normal life
But if there was a drug that could keep me up
Here in the sky, I'd hit it twice

DAY 1

2009-02-24T22:47:00.000-08:00

Everyone is calling my name
But all I want is to be alone
Everyone keeps staring
I wish they would just go away
Walking these streets at night
Ain’t easy
Specially when the men come
Your way
I just want to be left alone
That’s why I left where I was
I just wanted to get that feeling
That Ive been craving for
I want to stop
But my body needs to feel free
It feels like someone is hitting
With a hammer in the head
It won’t go away till I get
Another hit
I know it’s bad for me
I know it’s going to make
Thing more worse
But I can’t help it
I need to get high
I need to feel free in
My mind

FAKe

2008-11-13T23:34:00.000-08:00

what i cant stand
is when you say somethen
than do another
why? i feel betrayed. missused
confused. abused.
you wasnt real
you was fake
i wouldve rather dealt with
him than you anyday
came across me all smooth and coo
but you wasnt. lies were written
underneath
being played hurts for a second
than goes away. life is about chooses and what
you make. if you still like her just say so
i wont get mad. i'll just know the truth
which is what i want
dont be fake and say somethen that your not
gon do. but its all coo. cus i will find another b00
better than u

MOVIN ON"

2008-11-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

I DONT KNOW IF YOUR EVER GONNA
LOOK BACK AND JUST THINK
LIKE MAN THAT GIRL PAP
REALLY HAD LOVE FOR ME
SHE REALLY CARED, AND I DID
BUT FOR WHAT YOU WASN'T THERE
I TRIED AND TRIED BUT STILL WHAT
THE FUCK DID I GET REJEcTED

its okay because what am i doin? movin on
why? cause you didn't wanna have anything
to do with me. why keep on wasting my time
if you still ain't feelin me. still ain't listenin
everything i thought we had was a lie
damn i feel real foolish. takin something
serious when wasn't nothing even there
but that's all right... why because im movin on

I FINALLY CAME TO TERMS WITH MYSELF
YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME AND NEVER DID
SO WHAT WAS IT? I ALREADY KNOW IT WAS JUST
TO ---- BUT ITS ALRIGHT. I WANTED JUST AS MUCH AS
YOU. BUT MY FEELINGS STARTED PICKIN UP AGAIN
IM GLAD THAT I MET YOU THOUGH
IM GLAD YOU SHOWED ME YOUR TRUE SIDE
YOU KEPT IT REAL AND THATS A POSITIVE ABOUT YOU

lol i returned home thinkin there was somethen
and there wasn't. i swear i fell foolish over you
but you live and you learn i ain't even mad
i still got nothing but love for you
but not the kind we used to have the kind where
im coo, im getting older, and when i see u again
i wont b mad at you. im movin on

MOVIN ON TO BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS
CAUSE IN ACTUALITY YOU NEVER WAS
GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME. I WAS LOOKIN FOR THE REAL
THING AND YOU WASN'T WILLING TO GIVE
I GAVE AND YOU RECIEVED UNFORTNATELY
LESSON LEARNED AND I KNOW IT NOW
NEVER FALL FOR SOMEONE WHO AIN'T
FALLIN FOR YOU BECAUSE YOUR BASICALLY
PLAYING YOURSELF

lol so movin on movin so on right now
ive been searchin for that one person
who can give me what i need but really
i don't need nobody i can do bad all by myself
even if that means touchin myself
long as its me won't have to deal with
bullshit from anybody because it's just me
pleasin me, yes believe... lol
nah but i can't lie, i already got someone in mind
but i'm still movin on and i mean from the thugs
from the streets, thats what gets girls caught up
havin different baby daddyies, nope not me
im movin on and that just what its gon b

Twisted

2008-11-01T17:14:00.000-07:00

First off I have to say
I wasn't tryin to be on you
Like I was your friend
I simply wanted us to enjoy a time
but instead of the time you
started to think.... why is this girl
texting. Telling me she wants to just chill
For what? We don't go out.
I know we don't go out and that's the point
I don't wanna have nothing to do with
You or your boys. Ya'll real but be frontin
acting like ya'll niggas be running somethen
That's funny, because us ladies fall for it
we make them feel like kings
while there makin us feel like shit
But really ya'll got it TWISTED.

I respect a man who catches the bus
when he doesn't have a car
I respect a man who works to
take care of his child
I respect a man who keeps it real
and doesn't fall under no bullshit
But I won't respect a man
Who follows under people
I won't respect a man when
He thinks he's shit
I won't respect a man
who will beat on a woman
Ya'll don't men just don't know
But ya'll got it stright TWISTED

Rejection

2008-11-01T17:01:00.000-07:00

Been there, Done that
Rejected from the past
Rejected with the future
How can that happened?
It's self-splanitory....

I was there layed out tired
Wanting to be next to your body
You got up really fast
Left the room in a rush
I layed there waiting
But you never came back

I'd rather be with one person
Than ten guys
I'd rather be with you but
Wouldn't that be a living lie?

I've been told I come off soft
I guess because I was always
having my angel guard up
But that guy hmm thats a different
story. Men just abuse and take
period...

rejection/rejected

girls

2008-10-28T11:30:00.000-07:00

So emotional
why, why do the whine so much
I guess its in our nature to be sdo blind
That goes for anything
Money, sex, drugs, everything

2:44 played again

2008-10-27T02:44:00.000-07:00

IM awake still
trying to figure out why
I just came from ol boys
house but you still b on my mind
Nuttin happened nothin really
I'm just disapointed this boy
got me really thinkin
sometimes things happen for
a reason. One day all get over this
attraction and keep it pushin
There's a reason u pushed me to
the side becus you dont want me
I'm not used to regretion coming from
a nigga. Life goes on and i'm yung
so why stress. It aint gon do nuttin
more but make me upset. Upset that
no matter who comes my way there
Not like you. & Thats what I dont want.
That's what I shouldnt want is another you
A crazy young thug who is a goon
I feel like Ive been runnin but I'm not
I guess I set myself to get played once
again; pretty dumb huh? I know
but i cant lie you had me saying dumb shit
that wasn't a lie. I would've done anything for
becus i loved u and that was real but it back fired
as soon as i got yo text. Me i got played by this fooh once
again. so once again here i am... writing... wishin and hopin all get
out of my life

FRIENDZ?

2008-10-23T00:46:00.000-07:00

Friendz
A have a couple
Not a few
Friends I wouldn't call them
Just affliates
The ones who always wanna know
More about your business
Who twist shit up after you
Said some then
I'm not a dummy I know who you are
Its crazy how they all come
Once you have a car
Thats not a friend
That's a affiliate
Only wanting to roll with you everywhere
In the city They don't care about you
Matter fact they don't give FUCK about you
All they see is themselves rollin deep
Friendz...
Do I have that?
All say that I used to have that
The girls who try and get you to do wrong
The girls who encourage you to fall
To turn you into one of them
Than the next thing you know
You ain't being yourself
Forget friendz who needs them
Someone desperate who can't fall asleep
I waste no sleep over friendz
There not thinking about me
Just what I got
Jealous bitches, you jealous hoes
Why you say you got my back
When you know you don't
Talking like you about to do some then
I've heard it all before
Watch what people do not just what they say
Because a whole lot can come out
But you'll see them again

Worse. Night

2008-10-22T23:24:00.000-07:00

What I needed was comfort
I wasn't in my right mind
That night was crazy
Everything you said was lie

I regret this time the most
You had me drunk
It was all a set up
The room, and the drink
That was really messed up

You took advantage of me
The fact I was young
& What happened next
You busted it out
First there was the talking About my past
About everything that happened to Joseph
Than what happened next?

What I needed was comfort
I wasn't in my right mind
That night was crazy
Everything you said was lie

He came up on me slow
Grabbed me from behind so soft
Started to lick my ears
Rub down my spine
Than somehow I was undressed
I felt it come inside
I pushed him away to his surprise
That wasn't on my mind

I regret this time the most
You had me drunk
It was all a set up
The room, and the drink
That was really really messed up

I wasn't faded but I was loaded
It bothers me everytime I talk about it
Worst night of life
Me and him
You knew what you were doing
You took advantage of me

What I needed was comfort
I wasn't in my right mind
That night was crazy
Everything you said was lie

It's Over

2008-10-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

Ive done it again
fell in love
Damn this hurts
Went From him to u
Went for so long I fell too soon
Why? Because I was ah fool
Thinking that there could've been
A me and u
Wrong again
I guess I was looking for love
In all the wrong places
Because I didn't get it back
Fell for another young one
once again
I been holding it in
But im a woman
I got emotions that I'm dealing with
Why?
Because it's over
I know it now
It's over I feel it now
It's over no more me and u
Just know I had love for u